SORRY FOR THE LAPSE, I WILL DO BETTER

I have been very melancholy lately, for very good reasons to myself, but probably not so to others. I suspect, that if in our years previous to the beginning of our older age, if we are satisfied with our use of these years, then this melancholy would not be so pressing or annoying.

I had lots of potential. “Potential” the word that has no meaning, and your parents and friends throw it around like all you have to do to perform is to show up. I got so tired of hearing how much potential I had that I started to wonder what I had to do to reach that potential, No matter how hard I tried or did in my studies, or my other endeavors, someone always was there to say, “but he has so much potential.”

No matter how much money I made, how many children I had, how many friends I shared, it was never enough. We are so engrossed in our achievements, that we miss our life and what is going on during this race to reach our potential.

Whether or not I have reached my potential, I will never know because who was right?? My critics or me?? It has me wondering did I or not ? This leads me to my melancholy position of missing all my old friends and questioning my decisions. Thus the age old question,whats it all about??

Time to get back on track,

CHICAGOFATPHIL